Woke up this morning Salty

At lunch I got some bad news within the circle that made pretty upset. He informed me of a death within the circle, told me homeboy died over arguing with a fiend over fronting a fix:

It's never, when or why, it's the way that he die Did he stand like a man till the day that he die Or was he reaching for guns or trying to run Or was he outside on the lawn in front of his son And if ya, running your mouth you can die in the slum Cuz in Maryland where I'm from they dying for crumbs You can die for your partners or die for ya moms Or you could die cuz your nigga just heard the alarm, just stealing Or die in a plane they say it's a bomb When they run it into a tower, they just say it's Saddam Screaming Allah the moment that it's hitting the building With total disregard for all men women and children See niggaz get killed when, people mix they money with feelings It's a war going on and they killing for nothing We were in denial all awhile they where flicking the buttons I'd rather be dying for something instead of living for nothing End of discussion

What you afraid of?

I'm scared to try cuz I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to die cuz I'm scared of hell
I'm scared to fly cuz I'm scared to crash
I'm scared to move on so I live in the past

I'm scared to start cuz I'm scared I'll quit
I'm scared that people wont like my shit
I'm scared of fortune and profits
Rumors startin and people watching

I'm scared of war I'm scared of jail
Scared to share a secret cuz I'm scared you'll tell

I'm scared of drugs I'm scared to drink
I'm scared to swim cuz I'm scared to sink

But no longer,

Scared to grow up cuz I'm ready to grow old
Scared of the dark and being alone

Scared to fight cuz I ain't scared to bleed

Scared of love cuz I ain't scared she'll leave

All by My Damn Self

i exist in the depths of solitude
contemplating my true aspiration
trying 2 maintain my sanity
and still perpetuate my manifestation

constantly yearning 2 be accepted
and from all receive respect
never comprising but sometimes risky
and that is my only regret
a young heart with an old soul

how can there be peace
how can i be in the depths of solitude
when there r 2 inside of me
this duo within me causes
the perfect opportunity
2 learn and live twice as fast
as those who accept simplicity